Sadly it's going to be a lonely Christmas for me and many other people, especially those with a chronic illness like M.E.
For me it will be the first Christmas on my own BUT it will be less stressful, easier to manage, quieter and peaceful. I can do as I please and if I want stay in my pyjamas all day!
Recently I've made a decision to change my life, to put myself and my health first. It's not been easy and it's hard adjusting to being on my own. Yet it has already opened new doors and inspired me to do different things. One of these is to write my first poem in French after my preferred French singer, Johnny Hallyday, and his latest release Seul
So my poem sums up my situation right now and how I feel
SEULE
Seule
En tristesse
J’ai pleuré
Seule
La musique
J’ai écouté
Seule
Paix et calme
J’ai trouvé
Seule
C’est mieux
Pour ma santé
Seule
Enfin J’ai
Ma liberté
For those who don't understand the French here's a translation
ALONE
Alone
In sadness
I have cried
Alone
The music
I have listened
Alone
Peace and calm
I have found
Alone
Is better
For my health
Alone
At last I have
My freedom
For those who don't understand the French here's a translation
ALONE
Alone
In sadness
I have cried
Alone
The music
I have listened
Alone
Peace and calm
I have found
Alone
Is better
For my health
Alone
At last I have
My freedom
Despite all that has happened to me in recent months I don't feel truly alone. This is because I have been overwhelmed by the kindness of so many friends and I have found new friends. My poem expresses how I feel about the kindness I have found.
Kindness
The
kindness of others
Who
all suffer the same
Provides
me with support
And
helps to keep me sane!
When
I read your kind words
Tears
well up in my eyes
Emotion
overwhelms
Taking
me by surprise
Such
a little kindness
I
find goes a long way
And
makes a difference
To
a difficult day
A
few kind words and thoughts
I
sure appreciate
And
I thank you so much
My
friends are truly great.
So I want to finish this year by thanking all my wonderful friends who have helped and supported me and have never given up on me. I couldn't have done it without you.
All that remains is to say that I feel like this is another chapter in my life and the chance to start over. I wish you all a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.
I have plenty of resolutions for the new year of 2015. I hope you do too.
Joyeuses fêtes et Bonne Année
A bientot en 2015
from the French Femme xxx
